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Mary Anne & Richard Erickson's avatar

OMG even after all these years that clip just brings tears to my eyes - the majesty of it! And YES - an amazingly inspiring song to hold in your heart every day - an anthem to the power of following your passion and not letting anyone stop you from fulfilling your destiny! You have done it! Brava Nan!

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thanks, Mary Anne. Yes, that song. There are things that I keep close to me, that spark passion and joy and a love of nostalgia (I must be getting old!). Songs like this one, live in my cells. XO

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Holly Starley's avatar

Yay to being in love with life and self!

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Holly!!! I miss you. Let's catch up soon? xo

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Jennifer Ward Dudley's avatar

Nan. Your voice came up by surprise . I’ve not seen or listened to any of my Substack writers. You are not “just” a writer. Your story and voice is marvelous. Keep singing.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thank you, Jennifer! I love recording my essays. I have so much fun with it. xo

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Allison Craig's avatar

Love this piece, Nan!

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thanks, Allison! xo

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Joy Turner's avatar

What a lovely, beautiful story! I, too love this song. I love the possibilities it conjures up in me. I love your bravery, your persistence, your voice. ❤️

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Nan Tepper's avatar

And I LOVE you, my Joy. xo

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Alisa Kennedy Jones's avatar

We all start by belting Barbra in our bedrooms. But finding your voice—and having the guts to use it, off-key, on-brand, and fully alive—is the whole damn show. :)

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thank you for that, Alisa. It really is, isn't it? I'm having the time of my life! This parade is the best one I've ever been to. And I've seen and marched in a awful lot that were far from satisfying. xo

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Nancy Jainchill's avatar

I love this one Nan. Yes, a love song to one's self. Yay for you.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thanks, Nancy! LOVE you. xo

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Elizabeth Beggins's avatar

That song, and that scene, in that musical, gives me goosebumps every time. She's amazing, and the message is worth singing at the top of our lungs!

I love that we both wrote about knowing who we are this week, Nan. Maybe it was in the water...or the rain. 💦

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Oh, my goodness. I was reading and commenting on your post! Talk about synchronicity. That song. That song. Blows my mind every time I play it and watching her sing it, and that amazing scene. Very little compares. Passion and love and fierceness. Loved your piece. I'm singing in the rain, but it's not raining on my song. Oh shit. There I go, mixing musicals again! xo

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Elizabeth Beggins's avatar

Ha! Mix away, m'dear. Maybe you can find a way to emulate this guy with muscial scores! https://www.instagram.com/reel/DEqiVbXvaZB/

I have to run now. Gotta go watch Barbra so I dream of all that's possible! 😅

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Nan Tepper's avatar

OHMYGOODNESS. That reel was fabulous, and that guy has one thing I don't have. A great voice and a great ear. But yes, that would be fun to do! xo

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Eileen Vorbach Collins's avatar

Keep on declaring yourself to the universe, Nan. We're here for it.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thanks, my dear Eileen. xo

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Prajna O'Hara's avatar

Nan, you are a writer and a fantastic storyteller.

I love Barbra and Fanny. My mother used to sing this song, almost as good as you.

Thank you

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thank you! So, your mother wasn't that good either? But it doesn't matter, because it's the singing that comes from our hearts. It's real. xo

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Prajna O'Hara's avatar

Absolutely. I was joking with you. I loved my mothers carefree singing, she sang what she couldn’t speak…

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Nan Tepper's avatar

I was joking back...xo

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Mary Roblyn's avatar

Nan, you are now and forever The Girl With the Golden Voice. Love you.💛

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Nan Tepper's avatar

LOVE you back. Hmmmm. I love that. The Girl with the Golden Voice. I'm considering going back for voice lessons. I did it for a short time at the end of Covid. Me, my teacher, both masked up in a small studio. I LOVED IT. It was a financial strain back then, but now, it wouldn't be as hard. Singing is the best. xo

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Irena Smith's avatar

“Every time I wrote a story I worried I would never again have another good idea” = me, every time I sit down to write anything. Thank you for giving voice— literally, figuratively, musically, spiritually, etc.—to the terror and beauty of becoming a writer, and a damn good one.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thank you, so much, Irena. I'm not used to hearing that. Taking it in. Trying not to deflect. The truth at the moment is that this process, this practice of consistent creativity is nourishing me in all the ways. It brings so many gifts. I'm gaily unwrapping all of them. They come in the form of insights, joy, and magnificent people who are writers, too. You're one of them for me. Looking forward to reading your post about Bulgakov later. About to teach my Substack 101 workshop.

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Irena Smith's avatar

My god, taking a compliment is a total ordeal for me, so I hear you. But please take this in and relish it because you deserve EVERY. WORD. And I hope the Substack 101 workshop is bursting with people who appreciate you and your many superpowers! xoxo

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thanks, Irena. I'll work on it, but I'm starting to believe it for myself, a little at a time, and it has to come from that place. Internal validation. Because without that, the compliments will be what I hunger for. External validation can't hold the same power as what I know deeply about myself, in the most humble way. Does that make sense? xo

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Tess McCarthy's avatar

Sing in that car!!

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Regularly, these days. xo

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Tess McCarthy's avatar

🚗🎵

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Nan Tepper's avatar

MWAH!

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Rona Maynard's avatar

"Ardent." A wonderful, life-giving word that this piece embodies. Keep on proclaiming your joyous ardency. Some people sing in notes, others in stories that amuse, comfort and inspire.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thanks for this comment, Rona. Ardent. I don't think I've used that word a lot in my life time, but it's wonderfully alive. Such a good word. I'm here. Completely in for the first time in my life. xo

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Rona Maynard's avatar

It was a favorite word of George Eliot’s. The characters in Middlemarch who retain a sense of possibility despite their troubles are all described, repeatedly, as ardent.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

I've never read Middlemarch but a dear friend of mine, Pamela Erens, recently published a book––a hybrid memoir––that's gotten a lot of great attention, Middlemarch and the Imperfect Life. Might be a fun read for you. She's very intelligent and a wonderful writer. I've read all of her novels, but I feel that unless I commit to reading Eliot first, it won't hold as much meaning. I have it sitting on my bookshelf, but I'm resistant. Not a huge fan of novels from that era, and it's HUGE...xo

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Rona Maynard's avatar

I just read the preview online. Excellent. Since the library doesn’t have a print copy, Pamela will make a sale.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Oh, that makes me happy! Thanks, Rona. She'll enjoy knowing that as my former bookseller self (how we first met at one of her book signing events), I made a sale long after retirement. xo

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Kelly Thompson TNWWY's avatar

You have such a gift and voice!

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Nan Tepper's avatar

Thank you so much, Kelly. You've supported me from the very beginning, and I'm very grateful! xo

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Kaarin Marx Smith's avatar

I'm going to be looking for you to sing "Don't Rain on My Parade" at the next class. Funny...I never thought of the song as a love song...always considered it a song of going after things whenever anyone told me, "no." You'd never want to hear me sing it out loud, but I do sing it to myself plenty.

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Nan Tepper's avatar

I'll sing if you sing! So, I think it's about that too, going after things that people tell you no about...but it indicates self-love, too, do you agree with my assessment?

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